Still Here - Thu. Oct. 31, 2024.

It's Michael.

The good news is the new medication is keeping her pain-free. The cost, again, is her grogginess and not being herself. It's like she's a generic, tired, nice person. Kind, caring, polite. But the spark that made this generic person Laurel is often not there.

I had written some details about her decline but I just can't bring myself to share them. That would have been her privilege. It must suffice to say that living is getting hard for her. I hope the Lord will gather her home before she is just lying in a bed, unable to interact and is just waiting.

Lots of intense feelings and emotions. I imagine only those who have been here, or somewhere similar, can fully appreciate this experience. Trying to put it into words reduces its sacredness. At least for me.

Thank you for everything you are all doing for her and for us.