Still Here - Sat. Nov. 2, 2024.

It's Michael.

There will be no more draft approvals by Laurel so I'll try to make her proud in my writing.

I really feel she's at the brink.

The reduction in the new med has had no effect on her grogginess. She still seems sedated. Hospice will check in again tomorrow for an update.

I have to wonder if the grogginess and lethargy are just symptoms of her decline. She has almost no strength. From bad cell spread? From not eating? Is she over-medicated? She cannot keep her eyes open. Her breathing is shallow and halting. She can barely lift a cup to drink. She rarely initiates conversation, just responds to inputs. She can barely walk, even with assistance, and can't push the walker over a 1/4" high bump. After a short walk this morning, she said she didn't think she could stand again. I told her she wouldn't have to. I believe she's done walking as of today.

A bit of (maybe?) humor. We were sitting beside each other and she announced "Jesus is here." I thought maybe something big was happening. I quietly (we are living in a VERY quiet environment. Every little noise is distressing to her) asked her what she meant. She pointed to her walker over which was draped her pajama top. I could see what she meant! But was she trying to be funny or was she really seeing Him?